I am one of the sad and people who enjoy the fast and furious rush towards a deadline. As it looms ever closer I find myself more inspired, increasingly wired and less healthy looking through lack of sleep and food. I don’t work this way because of the need to catch up, I work this way because if I don’t I’d kick my ass for not giving it everything and always going that little bit further. None of my work, do I consider, is finished! Always a work in progress, as soon as you think something is finished you have reached a new point of arrogance which will only limit your development as a student or a professional designer. In my eyes someone who is profession is just a student under a new title, throughout my career I hope to never get bored with feel as though I have nothing new to explore or experience in my specialist area.
Reminds me of what Mike Press said about the curve which most of us live our lives, his idea is to constantly reinvent yourself otherwise it’s just a slow and agonizingly painful decline towards the grave.
This particular deadline I have been quite hyped about however, not entirely confident. Confident I will pass, YES, I have done all the work required and more, my problem is; it look so different from other work I have seen. My main concern is that my work doesn’t fit in because I am not as abstract or ‘pattern orientated’ I would rather have a ‘pattern accent’. People have tried to reassure me that because I am different it’s a good thing, in the big bad world yes, in an institution where people adhere to trends and follow a structured way of developing… Not so much. Perhaps I’m just being paranoid, the work is there, it is coherent and visually readable as a thought process with extensive research over a broad area with plenty of variables considered.
At least I can whole heartedly say nothing I have produced was created to make my tutors happy, something they particularly like.. Blow smoke up there arse for lack of a better term.
Well that’s enough procrastination for one coffee break. Time to get back at it.
Wish me luck my darlings! 🙂 x